Starting to get into this vicious cycle where I’m giving up gym time, losing sleep, eating crap foods (especially carbs ugh must stop)
and getting fat and feeling miserable and low self-esteem
too excited to sleeep lol
banana + spinach + mango + granola
half bowl of oats + cocoa powder + agave nectar
2 whole eggs, scrambled + frozen veggies (broccoli + spinach + carrots)
Tuesdays are always long af, but this particular Tuesday has been particularly long and will continue to be so until Wednesday comes around.
I had this insane/potentially genius idea to go to sleep right after I get back from all my activities (10ish) and wake up at 4am to finish all my work.
But to be fair this idea was inspired by this one CEO/successful businesswoman who says she’s most productive at 4am so that’s when she wakes up and does all her work and it works for her…so you know that’s what I did.
Except I had to finish my friking pres app which I submitted at friking 11:59pm with ONE friking minute to spare and omg I literally almost stopped breathing when I had to double-check to see if I was sending it to the right email address.
But you know I’m proud being able to cross of things on my to-do list, even if they’re like 2-3 days old.
but like dam i have to make announcements in class too and ugh I have stage fright and brain is a mush right now and i still have to participate
also theres like internships I have to secure for the summer otherwise I will fail at life. I really only need one. like plz.
BUT UGHHH i dont remember life being this hectic last year like dam.
Also Monday is officially the first day of Spring semester
But I feel like the semester started a HELLA long time ago
ALSO currently loving and hating the idea of recruitment like I hate having to go through it but I also love the songs and our skit is friking so hilarious and IMA GET MY LITTLE THIS SEMESTER AHHHHHH
Not ready to be done being a little hehe
After having fries for the first time in literally AGES today, I can definitely say that
1. Fried foods really do drag you down and make you feel lethargic.
Like the first 5 tastes amazing and then you forget what you’re really eating.
2. Sweet potato fries are SO much better
Wut is this shortness of breath????
I forgot to specify DECAF for my coffee and now I’m like breathing really fast??!?!? Omg
Wtf it’s like I can’t eat or drink anything anymore
On the other hand, I am officially done with all labs!!!!!! Never thought I’d see the day ahh
Just ate three bananas in one sitting
And like half a bag of granola
Like literally HALF of the bag omg
Ugh gawd I can feel my stomach dying
Documenting this so I don’t feel like this again
- Don’t let previous hard work go to waste.
- Be brave & approach anyone.
- Don’t back away from a challenge just because it is tedious.
Reblogging my resolutions from last year cuz I’m gonna need them this year
oh past me, you were so ambitious and determined..what happened..
day 2 of surprisingly eating really well
I feel great; tummy feels super great
And then I did this workout called the descending ladder of pain
My lungs still kinda hurt from it and I have to walk like I’m some awk dude tryna look like he’s from the hood
Anyway, I ate like a fatass right after, binge-ing (how do you conjugate this word..?) on madre’s hotpot soup thing
and it felt amazing eating like a fatass knowing that you have room to eat like a fatass cuz u just finished going down the descending ladder of pain
Dam. Life just got pretty great.
And now on to never ending piles of workload.
Bring it the fuuuk on. This is too easy compared to the pain ladder.
Using only twenty-something days to process a semester’s worth of regret is
hard very hard overwhelming overwhelming..ly …difficult there’s just so much too. much. agonizing shameful
I recently have this theory that you can just like someone and not let it develop into anything else
a crush can stay a crush without anything happening.
overtime, it will fade.
It might die, or it might revive itself, depending on whatever may happen down the road.
No one really knows what will happen, but that’s the beauty of it, so it’s better to embrace it.
Embrace the unknown.
I literally spent like 3 days worrying about this project
and then when I actually looked at it, I realized it’s some shortass thing that isn’t at all scary or impossible
why do I keep being in denial..?
still wont check my grades doe oh and why the fuuuk has this semester been a never-ending whirlwind of school work..???? I really want to just curl up and read and learn a new skill lemme self-actualize……gawd.