Apparently this turning a new leaf program doesn’t apply to guys CUZ I AM STILL AWKWARD AF smh
Update I es over it.
I’m honestly really stressed about my classes, especially since I was sucha mess last year but also like DAMN these junior classes are INTENSE I’m already feeling the pressure ugh. I need yoga.
Reminder: it’s the amount of focus, not the time spent or the time of day!!
Tbh I have yet to add him in my contacts because I have yet to decide if he is worthy to be in my heart slash life
I also love how I am just so openly blogging about this
Grade A quality human texted!
Not gonna analyze what this means but I can confidently say that I always respond in a way that’s not myself 😔
Is this a sign/red flag 🚩🚨🚨🚨🚨
Because why not.
Ok I would like to thank grade A quality person for giving me hope that there are still decent college guys out there who are driven & passionate about their dreams and work hard to better themselves everyday in every way.
Ugh omg I literally lost my train of thought cuz he snapchatted me and not only that but he PERSONALLY snapchatted me omg who even does that anymore like help what do I do how do I feeel?!?,!:&2&
Okok no back to my totally objective human-to-human appreciation post…
Yes. Thank you for being hope & reviving me optimism that yes, quality guys DO exist and they ARE out there! Thank you for reminding me that I really don’t have to “stop being so picky”
OK FUUUUK I TOTALLY SENT THE WRONG EMOJI AMD THEN I SENT HIM THIS LONG EXPLANATION AND NOW HES NOT RESPONDING CUZ HE PROBS THINKS IM JUST SUPER WEIRD NOW OMG I RUINED EVERYTHING 😭😭😭😭😭😭
…I guess it’s time to go back to my old lady days & not feeling young again no more
dammit. It was nice while it lasted 😔
- Unilever ideas
- mentor doc: send to Claire
- site statement
- work out
- organize move in stuff
- put stuff in car
- get damage fee check from mom
I am not being discipline or honest enough about what I’m eating.
I also had a ton of psyllium after dinner and it was the most traumatizing moment of my life. Never again.
The fact that parents are unable to see the good in their children really bothers me..I will make a conscious effort to NEVER to that to my kids.
3 slices of white bread
1 bowl of mixed grain + white rice
1 Granny Smith
1 bowl cabbage
1 piece sweet potato
1 piece butternut squash
My parents freaked out today because I ate NOT JUST ONE piece of bread, but TWO & therefore I am gonna get fat as all hell cuz I have absolutely no self control..
But I proceeded to inform them that when life gives me the luxury to go back and eat another piece of bread to my heart’s content, then you know DAM WELL ima do that like is that not common sense??
& why am I being lectured for something like this when there are more important things to lectured me about
Today I had a mustard lettuce tomato on wheat.
Surprisingly, it was delicious.
As was the rice pilaf at dinner tonight. It went super well with Italian dressing for some reason.
I think I just created a new thing.
The cheesecake hit the spot but made my stomach cry. Still debating on whether that was worth it.
Although I did have like three cookies..that could be the culprit as well.
..I literally just wrote vividly about the foods I ate today. This may or may not be a problem.
Finally saw Mercedes for the first time in ages. We esss having food and stalking cute boys. Mercedes ratchet side came out because she couldn’t fine parking and she’s just always ratchet. Ohhh and she’s in loveeeee 😍😍😍😍😍. Missed and loved seeing her again.
HAHA good times
Uh so I napped for like 2 hours after I got home today
I set my alarm for 30 minutes LOL
I still need to polish up my final presentation for tomorrow
I’m going last apparently because it’s by last names like OF COURSE but then I was like well that’s fine I can be the GRAND FINALE YAY & then my supervisor was like well that’s one way to look at it…
well that’s certainly better than looking at it the other way like happiness is a choice & I choose to be happy
still gotta write them thank you cards..
and prep work for conference by NOON tomorrow but I dont got that time tomorrow so I need to do it now UGH why did I wait till now plz stop
also confession time I totally had a panic attack & stress ate today - had an oatmeal raisin cookie and 3 sugar cookies today OH and a mini reese’s cup
yeah no totally not freaking out right now..
PS. chatting with this guy from my hometown in the most unexpected way but I haven’t met someone who actually has goals for his future and CARES ABOUT MINE like seriously have I just been meeting the wrong people geez.
Today I learned how to score a tomato
[didn’t know you had to do that..?]
According to Google search & a random video, it’s a technique for removing skin on a tomato: cross-hatching the sides all the way, put into a boiling pot of water and peel.
My issue with this is first of all what’s wrong with the skin?? Isn’t that supposed to be the most nutritious part?
And what a waste of water smh.
Idk about this discrimination/injustice
plus that’s so many steps gawwwwwd
Really treated myself when I got home today
With some chocolate banana ice cream
& my choco chip muffins
TOPPED WITH a whopping spoonful of peanut butter & more choco chips
I would say that I’m totally prepared and not at all nervous about presenting to the really strict director tomorrow but id be TOTALLY LYING
Something about the rain and nighttime made me ESPECIALLY nostalgic tonight.